The bottom has fallen out from under my feet and I have hit the bottom of a deep pit with only a sliver of hope that I will be able to get out. At least that is how I feel.
Sliver of hope is all I need, but that hope may not come from where I desire most. Forgiveness may not come. Not from him, not from them. My hope, my forgiveness may only come from the Holy One of Israel. The One who’s love for me is unconditional, unending, and unfailing. From the One who is sitting here in the pit with me, wiping away the tears from my dirt streaked face. Sure I have sisters above me, offering words of Truth, reminding me of His promises. They are His mouth piece and I desperately need to hear these words from them. He sits Shiva here with me, silently letting me crumble in His embrace.
I don’t know how long I will have to stay here, but I know He and my precious sisters will be there when I can finally climb out again. I will stand on the promises poured out for me, letting them be my foot hold as I move up, move out, one step at a time.
Psalm 33 NIV84
1 Sing joyfully to the LORD, you righteous;
it is fitting for the upright to praise him.
2 Praise the LORD with the harp;
make music to him on the ten-stringed lyre.
3 Sing to him a new song;
play skillfully, and shout for joy.
4 For the word of the LORD is right and true;
he is faithful in all he does.
5 The LORD loves righteousness and justice;
the earth is full of his unfailing love.
6 By the word of the LORD were the heavens made,
their starry host by the breath of his mouth.
7 He gathers the waters of the sea into jars;
he puts the deep into storehouses.
8 Let all the earth fear the LORD;
let all the people of the world revere him.
9 For he spoke, and it came to be;
he commanded, and it stood firm.
10 The LORD foils the plans of the nations;
he thwarts the purposes of the peoples.
11 But the plans of the LORD stand firm forever,
the purposes of his heart through all generations.
12 Blessed is the nation whose God is the LORD,
the people he chose for his inheritance.
13 From heaven the LORD looks down
and sees all mankind;
14 from his dwelling place he watches
all who live on earth—
15 he who forms the hearts of all,
who considers everything they do.
16 No king is saved by the size of his army;
no warrior escapes by his great strength.
17 A horse is a vain hope for deliverance;
despite all its great strength it cannot save.
18 But the eyes of the LORD are on those who fear him,
on those whose hope is in his unfailing love,
19 to deliver them from death
and keep them alive in famine.
20 We wait in hope for the LORD;
he is our help and our shield.
21 In him our hearts rejoice,
for we trust in his holy name.
22 May your unfailing love rest upon us, O LORD,
even as we put our hope in you.